I'm a boat

Life's becoming so hard,
I don't know how long I can take this,
For how long I can live in this dark and fucked up world.
I don't think I can last much more,
My scars are starting to open again,
And the blood is falling,
Hitting the floor at the speed that people continue to tell me lies,
My heart is pumping so fast,
The thoughts in my head are so loud,
I wish I can just run away and left this all behind,
Not thinking about all the times I had let people down,
And all the times they had hurt me and didn't even care if I remain intact.
I'm a broken and lost boat trying to find my way back to the coast